Frustrated

I'm so frustrated and tired and hurting. I just got diagnosed two weeks ago (I think). I don't have regular meds yet. I see my PCP on Thursday and my Psychiatrist on Friday and I have to figure out who will treat my fibro and how and make a plan. I have some liquid oxycodone left over from my gastric bypass surgery (in Aug 2010) that I have been using this last week because I am out of all other pain meds besides a muscle relaxer. It's not ideal, but it takes the edge off for now. So I take it this morning and my pain to a tolerable level, then I am walking and lose my balance and bang my knee on the kids art easel. Pain not only comes to my knee immediately, but shoots through my entire body. how miserable. Now I am once again trying to get relief. I may need to ice my knee so that I don't get a huge knot on it and to help reduce the bruising that will come. I bump into things all the time. I am always dropping stuff. I can't remember anything... even to turn the lights off when I leave the room which I am always getting chastised for. None of my family understands how much fibro can effect EVERYTHING in my life. I try to explain, but they will I am just making excuses. I'm not. I really am struggling and they don't get it. So much of what is gong on with my body, brain, and functioning seems to be tied in with this, but no one gets its. I'm not lazy. I'm not making excuses. I really am having trouble. I try, but I really can't help it.