Miserable

I am so miserable. This pain is way too much. Thinking that I am 25 years-old and that I am going to have to cope with pain for the rest of my life, however long that may be, it horrible. I feel at times, that this Fibro may kill me sooner rather than later. I'm not sure that I want to live like this. I try to be positive but when I hurt so badly that I cannot do anything, it's hard. I don't want this. I didn't ask for any of this and it really just isn't fucking fair.  I want a good life. I want to be happy and well. I want to finish school. I want a husband and a family. I cannot imagine burdening a significant other with this, never mind trying to raise children while in this pain. I feel like all of my hopes and dreams have been crush by this Fibro. I have no hope right now for a good life. I'm trying to find hope, but right now I can't.

This is all for now because I hurt too much.